Saturday, October 1, 2011

Doubt....

do you ever doubt what you do?
or
why you are doing something?
i don't know if it's for the lack of sun today,
or the fact i feel a little under the weather
or 
i just didn't get my mojo back after a long run

but today
i am doubting why i do or want to do 
Bee & Mason.

i mean deep down inside i know this is what i
truly want to do everyday, all day
but the reality is 
i have a full time job that expects me to
live and breath it everyday, all day.
and in order to go anywhere within the company
i better step up to the plate and drink the koolaid.

this troubles me.
shit this posting with probably cause troubles for me
but i really struggle with 
what my heart and soul wants to do
and what i need to do to keep paying the bills.


i'm being pretty damn transparent here but what the hell.
maybe the universe will hear me and send me 
a clear message on what to do
and help me clear my heart of doubt.

thanks for listening.

ciao,
f

4 comments:

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Kristin said...

oh girl!!! i am feeling the EXACT same...i have to have a full time job but i long, dream, desire to make my online store and blog my "business" one that pays the bills...
i will be checking in with you to see if you have been given a direction...good luck and hang in there!!

xo
kristin

Andy's Attic said...

Doubt is normal.....it may be lack of sun, or feeling under the weather, or no mojo. When I have those "life" doubts (and I have had several), I give it time, sleep on it, write a pro and con list, and it often just works itself out. If not, I take a real hard look at reality and make some decisions. I wish you an easy solution, Annette

Ashley said...

I know how you feel.

♥ Ashley

atparsons.blogspot.com

PS I love my jar I got from you at the Junk Salvation in Puyallup this year!!