do you ever doubt what you do?
or
why you are doing something?
i don't know if it's for the lack of sun today,
or the fact i feel a little under the weather
or
i just didn't get my mojo back after a long run
but today
i am doubting why i do or want to do
Bee & Mason.
i mean deep down inside i know this is what i
truly want to do everyday, all day
but the reality is
i have a full time job that expects me to
live and breath it everyday, all day.
and in order to go anywhere within the company
i better step up to the plate and drink the koolaid.
this troubles me.
shit this posting with probably cause troubles for me
but i really struggle with
what my heart and soul wants to do
and what i need to do to keep paying the bills.
i'm being pretty damn transparent here but what the hell.
maybe the universe will hear me and send me
a clear message on what to do
and help me clear my heart of doubt.
thanks for listening.
ciao,
f